I hope, with all my might, that the author of the newest book I am reading is a mother. Because in "Ti.me of M.y Life" by Alli.son Win.n Sc.otch she writes "...But I never quite figured out how to turn it off, the button that said "full-time mom" so mostly, I flipped through magazines or sped over websites, concocting new recipes to be tested or art projects for upcoming play dates or worrying about hosting the best birthday party in the neighborhood, even if her birthday was four months out."
If I read this book pre-motherhood, I wouldn't understand. I would think that it would be so.easy. to turn off the mom button. To enjoy a pedicure without thinking of something to do with Eddie...hell, to even get a pedicure. But my mind does not shut off mom mode, ever. I look around some one's house and think of the ways to baby proof. I think of milestones. I think of what Eddie is ahead or behind on. I think of the future. I plan. I make lists. It never shuts off.
Is it a bad thing? I haven't decided.
For that smile, though....I'm pretty sure it's worth it.
-maggie
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